03/25/09 12:15 AM ET
A-Rod: Don't release 103 positive tests
Yanks slugger tells YES Network it wouldn't help his situation
By Bryan Hoch / MLB.com
Speaking with host Michael Kay for a segment taped before the slugger's March 9 right hip surgery, Rodriguez said that he does not think releasing the identities of that year's other positive tests for performance-enhancing drugs would help his own situation.
"This is really about my mistake," Rodriguez told Kay. "You know, many nights I fell asleep thinking about who I can blame, and this guy, or that guy. And when I woke up I kept coming back to the same person; it's me. I mean, there's no one to blame. I hope those 103 names never come out."
In the interview, Rodriguez again apologized for his use of banned substances during his three seasons with the Rangers from 2001-03.
"I'm very sorry," Rodriguez said. "You know, we're role models, and I think athletics plays a big part in our culture, especially in the world we're in today. There's so much negativity and sadness going on around the world and the U.S. ... people look at baseball for a savior or for inspiration, and I know that I've let a lot of people down.
"I know there's kids out there that I've never met before, and I probably never will, that I've hurt them, and for that, I'm very sorry. I'm not very good with words, but no matter what I sit here and tell you today, it's not going to express how truly sorry I feel for what I have done."
Before leaving the Yankees for the World Baseball Classic and then a surgical procedure that is expected to keep him out of the big league lineup until mid-May, Rodriguez said that he apologized to his Yankees teammates individually and as a group. He said that he has received "tremendous" support in the form of e-mails, text messages and voice mails.
"Every single one of those guys, at one point, has reached out to me, and made me feel comfortable and has been very supportive," Rodriguez said. "I don't think without that support I would be able to get through this.
"With that said, I hope that we take this crisis that I've put myself under, and this you know, this kind of mess that I've built for myself, and hopefully we can come together and become a tighter team. And hopefully nine months from now we'll be celebrating."
The recent revelations are certainly the most prominent items in what has been a tumultuous five-plus year stay in New York for Rodriguez. Asked by Kay if Rodriguez worries that people do not like him, Rodriguez said that he has "given up on that."
"It's just the way it is," Rodriguez said. "I mean, look, I feel like right now, that, not too many people like me, so I've given up on that. As long as my teammates like me, and they respect me, and my two daughters love their daddy, I'm going to go out and do the very best I can. Look, I really screwed up, and for that I'm sorry. I'm just happy to be playing baseball again."
The season preview special also featured interviews with Derek Jeter, CC Sabathia, A.J. Burnett, Mark Teixeira and Joe Girardi, plus a roundtable discussion with Kay, Ken Singleton, David Cone and John Flaherty, hosted by Bob Lorenz.
Bryan Hoch is a reporter for MLB.com. This story was not subject to the approval of Major League Baseball or its clubs.